I know I was dangerous without meds, but there are some aspects of my illness that I wish I still had... It's really been bothering me to the point that I really want to go off my meds, even knowing I could hurt myself or others.

The most notable thing I miss were these two friendly hallucinations I had... I don't know, knowing that the meds are stopping me from seeing them just makes me feel like a murderer. I have had other hallucinations in the past like this that have gone away permanently on their own, and I'm afraid that if I don't go off my meds soon enough the same thing will happen to these two. Can anyone relate?

The other thing I miss is my hypomania (I'm bipolar type). I think that speaks for itself.

I also had some delusions and voices that I sometimes miss, but to a lesser extent.