I've had hallucinations, delusions and extreme paranoia for all my life. For the past year or so I've been off of my medication because I got pregnant and wasn't comfortable with it. I tried briefly after she was born to get on medication, but I still have yet to find anything that worked. I've tried well over twenty different medications with no luck. I've decided recently to go back because it seems like it's getting harder and harder to tell the difference between reality and what's in my head. Does this disorder get worse with time? Any advice would be wonderful. I'm just afraid of my own mind at this point and I'm not sure what to do. Thanks for taking the time to read this. Also, I don't have the opportunity to get online a lot and it may take some time for me to reply.