Thanks. After reading about depersonalization disorder on my own, I talked with my psychotherapist about it. Eventually, after we talked a lot about it, he agreed that's what it is. I just get paranoid that it's going to turn into something much worse. It's bad enough as it is. My psychiatrist diagnosed me with GAD and OCD on my first visit, and since then, every other visit has been based off of that diagnosis and what medication I need. I take 1mg of Klonopin at night, 20mg of Prozac each morning, and I've recently been prescribed Ritalin as well.

I think overall I'm better than I was a year ago, but not by much at all. I still feel out of it. When I walk around where there are a bunch of people or a lot of activity going on around me, I feel really out of it, and very much like I'm in a dream. When the word "anxiety" has been used to describe what I have, I have never thought it was really the right diagnosis, because I don't feel the normal feelings that come with anxiety. But my mind is never at ease. It's never still. I over-analyze every situation, thought that comes into my head, look that someone gives me, and what someone might be thinking about me. I think it may be possible that living in a never-ending state of anxiety eventually brought on this never-ending state of depersonalization/derealization, which in turn makes me not able to recognize feelings of anxiety.

I don't know. If anybody has any thoughts I would like to hear them. On a side note, I know the Klonopin has helped me sleep at night, and relax, but I don't want to get dependent on it. It not only helps me get to sleep faster, but I think it also improves my overall sleep quality. I went without it for two nights and felt horrible those two days that followed. If anyone has any experience with this I would also like to hear about it. Thank you.

I know there is a dissociative disorder forum, but I read that and most all of the posts were about DID and alter egos, which I do not have. I posted this here because I thought it might possibly relate better to anxiety.