I'm wondering if anyone else feels like this: When there is a guy I am attracted to who maybe I am having sex with, and who I care about, I typically will end up feeling fond for and caring about guys that are his best friend, not in an attraction kind of way, just in a human kind of way. If I am with the guy I am attracted to and his best friend, I will usually position myself in a way that I am in between the two of them if we're walking together or if we're sitting together, and I will touch the guy I'm attracted to, if we are at that level, but I will also touch the other guy. I think of it as "sharing myself" because physical contact is very important to me and so I don't want the friend to be left out. So, for example, when I hung out with Bryan (who I was attracted to) and Darrell (his best friend), I would walk between them and maybe brush up against Darrell, in addition to Bryan. And when we sat on the stoop together I sat in the middle and positioned my elbows and knees in a way (subtle and not creepy, just kind of natural), that I would be slightly touching both of them. When Mike (who I was attracted to) and Nills (his stepbrother who is like his best friend) and I all hung out together, we made a fort and watched a movie, and I lay between the two of them, and let it happen that I was touching both Mike and Nills (maybe shoulder lightly against shoulder, or arm against arm, or leg against leg). I am hyper aware of physical contact, for a few different reasons I guess. Was just wondering if anyone else has felt like this. Haven't really heard of anyone feeling like this before.

Also, my favorite social situations is when I'm alone with a guy, or with he and his best friend, or with a group of all guys. I generally enjoy being with guys more than I enjoy being with girls. I told this to my therapist once and she cut me off and said it's okay and people just have different preferences, but I feel like there is something more to it - that there's something behind it, a reason, I don't know. Wondering if anyone has felt this way, also.