I have tried probably 20 different meds for depression/anxiety and they don't work, I just get insane side effects...and these don't even include SSRIs as my body can't tolerate those anyway. I take Klonopin to keep these nasty dreams I have away and so I can sleep sometimes (mostly I don't) but it does nothing for my anxiety. I am finally switching Ts because that hasn't been working either. And I got laid off last year. I haven't gone out with anyone in 3 years, the love of my life is taken, and I have pushed most of my friends away...I want most of them gone, I can't be around people who are happy. Anyway, you are not a loser, but you are struggling and I wanted to let you know that you are not the only one. Try a different med (or 2 or 3) and get a different T if you can. Try to meet some new people. Worry about love when you have taken care of you and feel better first. I wish you the best.