I tried to fix what I thought was wrong with me from childhood through my twenties and thirties. Im a survivor because I know God, loves me. The trueth will set you free. Im going to be fifty in a week. And all the pieces of my life are finally coming together. I recently found out about narcissitic personallity disorder,but these people made a choice to abusethose around them. Im sick and tired of being sad and every time I open up to people im looked at strangely and I leave with the same emptiness as when I first arrived. I need love, guidence and healing, support. Im very intelligent.Iam worthy of a frienship.