Your post moved me greatly.

I will not tell you what to do either way.

I wish I were still a virgin, too. I never knew what it was like, either, to be intimate with someone I loved who loved me back.

In my view, you still are a virgin. You did not give it up; someone else took it from you. It was not right. You did not lose it. Someone took it.

I do understand you wanting to be physically a virgin again. I wish I could be one, too.

Carol