You don't have to trust right away. Just talk in a protected environment. Or maybe go to a support group like Cocosurviving suggested and just listen for a while. Don't speak up until you're ready. But you have to have something to aim at that is outside of your head. Maybe if you get a pet, or plant some flowers that will need your attention and give you company and purpose. Maybe just talk on the phone to some hotline numbers.
Watch TV or read. When I was my craziest TV would allow me to focus on something outside and let my mind rest for a while. Eventually I regained control of my thoughts and got well.
Please keep posting. and stay safe