Icant seem to get anything in my life in order or I just don't want to deal with my issues I been dealing with lately. Just when I think I am making progress one way or another I **** up something or piss off someone to get myself back to feeling depressed or self destructive.

I swear I don't know where I am going, but the path I am heading down seems to be really hard and challenging. I can't seem to get my life together and be happy with myself or anyone else. I don't know what to do and I can't stand to take the constant bull **** anymore with my state of mind. It's just too much to handle for anyone I don't want to deal with it at all.

I'm just really stuck and have no clue on how to make it any better.