Why cant I see what everyone else see's ?

My Husband put his hand on my hip this morning & told me that im getting to skinny as all he could feel was my hip bone

Than today I was a friends mum that I havent seen I a few months & she told me that I was to skinny & was looking really drawn & anorexic

Why cant I see what every one else see's im not skinny far from it I went back up to 118lb at the beging on sept & everyone told me that I looked really good for doing so but all I could see was fat

Why cant I see what they all see im now 113lb & really want to get rid of that 13lb but I cant do it

Why when I look in the mirror or a shop window as I pass it cant I see what everyone else see's all I can see Is a really BIG FAT person looking back at me all my clothes (3weeks old) are getting to big again so I can now get in to a size 6 but im still not happy

Sorry to go on I will go now & let you get on that is if there Is any one still there