Granite,

When I read your report card, I didn't think anything bad about you at all! What it sounded like to me was that you had a hard time paying attention and completing tasks, and I think it was probably because you were always so stressed out about what was going on at home. You probably had a hard time paying attention at school because you were trying to cope with so many painful experiences at home.

I am exactly like this as an adult. When I get too stressed out or get triggered by something, I start getting very spacy and forgetful, and even sometimes don't notice when my h talks to me. My t says it is a type of dissociation. I wonder if that is what you were experiencing sometimes at school.

About the talking. . .that is very normal behavior for kids, especially in grade school. My h's teacher called him "Motor mouth." I know it still bugs him to this day!

I remember one of my report cards gave me an "N" (needs improvement) under the topic "Respects the property of others." I wonder what that means?? I can't imagine myself stealing somebody's pencils or something. . .weird.

I hope you get brave and share your report cards with your t. I think it will help her realize that you were probably stressed and it was hard to settle down and relax at school. It doesn't mean you did anything wrong or bad. Just that it was hard to concentrate. That is SOOOO understandable considering all the stuff that went on at home.

I wish we could all go back in the past and rescue, hug, and encourage little Granite when she was sad. . .