I've made up my mind. I'm leaving my job.

I just. can't. do. it.

The great Erma Bombeck once said, "There is no way your foot will ever get well as long as there is a horse standing on it." This job is that horse, not only standing on my foot but grinding it into the ground. IOW, I can never hope to get my bipolar under control until there is less stress in my life, and there will never be less stress in my life until I'm no longer working in a job I can't handle.

Tomorrow I'm going to put in my 30-day notice. This will at least give me health insurance for another 60 days and buy me some time to find something else. I'll file for unemployment insurance the day after I leave......I know they'll try to deny it but I'll sic my pdoc on 'em, he'll have NO problem telling them I left because of extreme work-related stress. I've drawn UI in the past after quitting a job due to stress, and I have no doubt I'll get it this time because I have all kinds of backup documentation to prove that.

Hopefully I'll find something before that becomes necessary, but the job market being as tight as it is and me being as old as I am, I know it's going to be an uphill climb. I don't consider myself nearly disabled enough to apply for SSDI; I simply need to do something that won't make me crazy. Or AS crazy.

I'm terribly disappointed, because I wanted this job to be my 'forever' job. It could've been too, had the workload and expectations not become too heavy for me to bear, or had my BP not gone so completely out of control. But, it is what it is, and now I've just got to go find something else to do.