I feel kind of bad, because he really has seemed a lot nicer than other guys, or at least more sensitive and easily hurt, and I can kind of get a sense about which guys are more likely to feel okay about hurting you and which ones are less likely, and he seemed like he was less likely. So I feel bad, like if I end up not sleeping with him it will hurt his feelings and it will be a mean thing to do since he's nicer than a lot of people.

And I also feel bad because I feel like I said I would have sex with him and if I took it back that would be mean and unfair. But I DIDN'T say I would, he asked me "why not we be friends with benefits" and I told him that I'd thought about that and I thought he would get his feelings hurt, then he said he wouldn't, and then he assumed that everything was settled and sex is what we are going to do, 100%, and that his feelings getting hurt was the only thing keeping me from sleeping with him, but that's not true. I said I THOUGHT about it, as in contemplated it, but that doesn't mean ultimately that's what I want. He asked me if I wanted to come over his house and I said "well, I am home six hours away for the summer" and he said "well, at least you know what you'll be doing when you come back." But I never said outright that I agreed to that and that's what we are for sure going to do. He said "I wish we could have talked about this sooner, we could have been having an awesome time together" and I did say "I know, right?" partly because I wasn't sure what to say, but that was the only time that I indicated that sex between us was really what I wanted. Right after that I told him all that stuff about how I might not want to have sex with him when I get back, I might not be ready right away, etc, that I reserve the right to see other guys and dump him for other guys. But I still feel as if I have some obligation to him, like I promised I would have sex, but I DIDN'T promise I would and in fact said the opposite, "I'm not going to make any promises," but he's acting like I did. He assumed super early in the conversation that we are for sure going to have sex and that makes me feel like I must've said we are for sure going to have sex, even though I didn't, and yet I still feel guilty about it.

I kind of just want to stop having anything to do with him completely because I am kind of unnerved by the whole situation and feel pressured and feel ****** about myself and about him, and I get freaked out pretty easy by people, like I am now, and I feel like it would be mean to totally cut him off because he is nice, (except he doesn't seem as nice anymore since once he thought I would have sex with me he stopped being short with me) but on the other hand my gut instinct is telling me that cutting him off is exactly what I want to do.