Hello I am very sorry that you are anorexic, and feel that you are overweight when you arent. Anorexia is a very traumatizing disorder, but there is help out there, that may help you to retrain your way of thinking about weight issues, and yourself, and turn your thinking into a positive reflection for yourself . there may also be support groups in your area that help persons with anorexia that may can help you feel more confident without food being your enemy, and your weight always having to be perfect. you are welcome to email if you wish neohiodbsa@yahoo.com I hope the best for you in your recovery. take care Soidhonia