I cannot stop trembling

I feel really small and scared. I missed my appointment today. My Ts gonna be so mad at me, just completely forgot..

I'm actually so scared. I don't.know what to do. I feel like I e been.knocked so far back and.I don't know where to turn. I can't deal with all this stuff Ijust can't.

I can't even explain on here.. And I was doing so well

I'm scared to see my T. I'm scared I wpont be able to talk like before. Then ill be so angry.

I've completely messed up my legs and I've got psychiatrists ringing me all over the place to constantly risk assess me. I'm trying to do work still. I'm swimming, I'm ru.ni.g but it just all feels so wrong.

My.local R centre keep rinongig me but it just sends me into complete panic, even the thought. I'm petrified of the woman I meet there. I just can't do this