Hey all- This is my first time doing any kind of blogging or anything like this but after a lifetime of seeking help from professionals I finally came across something terrible in my life that I can't even approach them about. About a year ago my husband and I split, and I started dating a new man. I found out early in our relationship that he had had sex with other men before his relationship with me. He would go online and find men to have sex with and meet up, he says he did this because he felt unwanted and this was an easy way for him to feel wanted. He said he was not gay but probably bisexual although he had a hard time with that word too. This was something I was willing to accept and move past, and to be quite honest I even thought it was somewhat of a turn on. Now I am 39 weeks pregnant with his child (yes, it happened very quickly) and I find out that 2 weeks ago he was having these thoughts again about being with other men (sometimes I think I am the reason for those thoughts because like I said I am turned on by this for some reason and I actually look at gay porn every once in a while which he knows about) but he decided he was going to act upon these thoughts and cheated on me with another man. He went behind my back and found him on a website and met up with him to have sex...while I am 37 weeks pregnant with his daughter. Although I had to discover this on my own-quite easily like he wanted me to find out-, he admitted to it right away and said he did not know why he did it. He said there has been so much stress in our relationship and basically anytime he has something good he has a bad habit of ruining it. I love this man and I know he is not gay and that he loves me also and wants to have a family with me. But he cheated on me! With a man! While I'm pregnant! I don't even know what to think about this, I am so hurt and devastated to think about him needing something else sexually even though he says I am everything he needs (and I have never doubted that during sex). I know that in his mind he was justifying himself since he knows I enjoy it, but obviously the difference is that he actually acted upon his thoughts and went through with it. I really hope and pray there is someone, anyone in the world out there that can relate to this horrible experience in anyway. I am going to have his baby any day now, and I have no friends and family to turn to in this situation (as you can imagine). Please help...and please don't be rude I know that this can be a very sensitive situation for some. Please understand that I am in love and starting a family with this man. Thanks for anyone that is willing to give me their advice and opinions.