Hello I hope you are doing better at this time. My name is Soidhonia, and I would like to leave you a hotline number for mental health issues if you need to talk to someone 1-800-273-TALK. I feel that you should tell your therapist before you wind up in a health crisis, so that your therapist can try to help you. My email address is neohiodbsa@yahoo.com if you would like to email. I hope the best for you and I hope you get the help you need and deserve soon. I am glad that you are seeking help for your problems at this time. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia