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Originally Posted by Got Java
Icant seem to get anything in my life in order or I just don't want to deal with my issues I been dealing with lately. Just when I think I am making progress one way or another I **** up something or piss off someone to get myself back to feeling depressed or self destructive.
I swear I don't know where I am going, but the path I am heading down seems to be really hard and challenging. I can't seem to get my life together and be happy with myself or anyone else. I don't know what to do and I can't stand to take the constant bull **** anymore with my state of mind. It's just too much to handle for anyone I don't want to deal with it at all.
I'm just really stuck and have no clue on how to make it any better.  |
You are in equal company here. I am sorry you feel this way cause I know exactly how this feels 100 times over.
I wish I had an upbeat message for you. I am just not anywhere near upbeat right now. I do have a few moments of happiness, or what seems like happiness so I try to take advantage of that when they come. Most times they feel fake but I still force myself to go with it. It always come crashing down on me so I think those times are fleeting. 
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