I understand where you are coming from. I had my breakdown in 2002 an have been on disability ever since. I am now wanting to try going back to work. Seeing that I am only 39 years old with two small kids, disability just isn't cutting it and I need to go back to work. I have some physical issues also I am trying to take care of and hopefully would like to try working part-time in the next six months. I am trying a new mood stabilizer and my hope is it will keep me enough on a even keel to be able to at least work some and supplement my income. I wish you the best.