OMG GRANITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am literally BEAMING right now after reading your post!!!! I am soooooooo happy for you!!!!!

YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I hear ya about the email thing. My T also doesn't like doing therapy by email, but he allows me to email if I need to. I try to limit it to logistical stuff - but I DO email him in crisis because I am unable to pick up the phone and call him. He knows this, so he doesn't stop me from emailing. He would much rather me get it out than hold onto it and have it come out in other harmful ways.