Thanks so much Soidhonia. I have been able to come out and talk about some pretty scary things since I posted. It hasn't been fun but at least I have no secrets now. I have people who will be checking up on me now to make sure that I'm not going back to starving myself. I got down to 105 pounds, which is scary for someone tall like me. I have stopped trying to lose weight. Now it will be some hard work trying to change some stuff.