I made a mistake and let the woman talk today. When she did, it was like she had not heard anything I said for 45 minutes. I always have some hope that she will say something that lets me know she has heard me. I am always bitterly disappointed. I have got to kill the hope. I cancelled for next week after this one being such a waste. Apparently, I need to figure out a way to communicate more clearly. And to slaughter the hope.

After I cancelled, I had a large scotch.
I may have another one after this second one I am having now (but, couchiers -note the order - I cancelled THEN I drank - no drinking before). I also may get stoned. I am hoping to sleep tonight - I have not slept well in the past couple of weeks. Actually since the last break. She will be gone the week after I cancelled so it will be two weeks at least before I try again. Surely I can figure out someway to communicate what I am trying to do in two weeks.

Ike - I am glad you are enjoying gospel hour. It is very funny.