((((Baker)))) you are absolutely not alone. I am soo sorry you are hurting right now.

It is good that you removed yourself from your Hs presence so you can at least hopefully get some rest.

Perhaps when you see the doctor tomorrow, you can ask for a referral for a good therapist. Do you feel comfortable confiding in your doctor? It is truly important for you to take good care of yourself right now for your health, the baby and the kids.

Please let us know how things go tomorrow and how you are doing.