Yeah, I'm doing a positive psychology program online and one of the steps is to determine how the relationship made me better. The more I think about it the more desperate I am for an explanation. Good or bad it has to be better than not knowing. Probably because I'm a rational thinker and need answers for everything. "Everything happens for a reason" and "it just wasn't meant to be" sound like a crock to me. I just don't know how to get my explanation from him.