I wish I did. This is actually the first time in my life that I have ever told anyone about the things that go on, And I can't thank god enough that I found this site.
I do feel overwhelmed. I never wanted so badly to just run away. I think if there was a way last night that I could leave with my children with no questions asked I would have done it. Night time for me is the worst. In the morning I feel a little better as if I can handle things better now, but at night I feel even more alone. I can't sleep, I'm nervous about everything, and I just want to go in a hole.