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Originally Posted by nicole84
I've seen some people around that are really sensitive to meds, I feel like I'm such a lost cause because I've been on around 15 different medications, all usually with far too intolerable side effects or they just don't do anything. The most recent is Abilify which I only had 2.5mg over 2 nights, had the terrible restlessness, worse insomnia, shakes, could barely stand. Saw my pdoc and she gave me Lorazepam to settle it but doesn't know where to go next. I know I have worse reactions with the more 'stimulating' ones, but I feel at a loss.
She's mentioned mood stabalisers but because of my hypersensitivity is unsure. Even talks about having me unmedicated. I've been that bad lately that I pretty much want to die every day. I haven't given up but so much of me wants to. I don't want to go back to self medicating with opiates which she knows about, but it's the only thing that has numbed my moods enough in the past to keep me going. Sorry for the long post, I just need some support and maybe some ideas of other meds that won't be as brutal. The worst SE's I've had were Saphris, Abilify, Zoloft, Lexapro, Efexor (after years of it helping it became too much) plus another bunch of anti d's. Benzo's are helpful but only in the short term and I don't want to be an addict.
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Nicole,
We're not only in the same boat; we're of one mind. I'm even beginning to think that being married(18 years on May 12th plus 3 years of living together/no children) is more of a stress than a comfort, primarily because my wife is addicted to alcohol, from an alcoholic family and has her own psych problems which she won't deal with. Sorry for digressing, but, like you, I'm seeking some way of living that will allow me to have some type of life. It doesn't have to be perfect; I've given up on the quest for perfection. As difficult and painful as the journey is, don't give in to despair. I know life for you and so many others, is miserable, but maybe the answer is to find a way of living which is relatively comfortable, safe, and low stress. If your doctor or doctors won't think outside the box, then you have to. As Benjamin Franklin, one of the great minds of the American Revolution said, "If everyone is thinking the same, then no one is thinking."