TR, I'm actually feeling much better today thank you. I went for a really long hard run yesterday and sweated a few thigns out then quite literally collapsed into bed and slept pretty much right through until my psych rang me and woke me up - ***** lol.

I do need to ring the uni T, I'm just scared. But I'll try.

OE, thanks for that amazing post. Yeah, I experience it a lot. I dont think that I have PTSD, cause I dont think I have flashbacks. THough I dont really know that I understand them. I suffer from anxiety but am medicated and it has been pretty well controlled. I have anxiety attacks, where I completely freeze up and I cant move fora while and all I can hear is my breathing and my heart hammering away. Its weird. I just feel completely overwhelmed. Sometimes I start fighting out of them, other times I remain completely paralysed. I couldnt tell you what I think about during them. Its usually one singular thought that revolves around and around in my head and I cant move past it. I havent had them in a while to be fair.

I do dissociate, I have found out during therapy.

I also definitely 'freeze'. Its weird the losing track of time thing. For me, I sometimes go a bit manic with the stress of everything. It feels like every minute lasts a second. I have to do everything so fast. I cant stay anywhere for any length of time. I tremor, badly. I cant really be in public when I'm like this, people cant keep up and it frustrates me. But its hard to just stay at home and tremble it out.

The losing track of time thing I think it comes from sleep disturbance as sleep and the hormones involved moderates our body clocks. So we can't feel an awareness of time. Its weird though because from personal expeirence the greatest lost of awareness of time came in the rawest stages of grief. Perhaps this was sleep deprivation too. But I'm not sure. maybe its just in times of extreme stress.