Depression is very taxing to deal with. It completely drains you. I find sometimes I just have to live in the moment to cope. I go to work, but some music on and try my best not to think about how depressed I feel. I tend to break things down into small parts at work and try my best to set goals and accomplish them. It takes a lot of energy to put on a mask at worn and pretend like I don't want to just end it all, but I need to work otherwise I will lose my house. I just have to think about things like that sometimes. I feel like I don't want to get out of bed, but I have to or things get worse.

Maybe your therapist isn't working for you, possible another one would help you. I haven't had much success with meds myself. I still trying to find something that works.