Hi folks,

I just posted this in psychotherapy realizing this is a much better place for it!

I am just thinking about something today. I had an okay 2nd session with my T where I sort of told my life story. We glossed over it and what just keeps playing in my head is her saying how -alone- I have been and am in life. Not lonely mind you, but alone.

I deal with this fine since my emotions are sorta foggy (will work on that) but I just keep thinking about this. It is very true, and I don't really see this as a problem. But trying to ponder where to go eventually in making myself a wholesome and healthy person I just can't help but wonder:

Can I ever care enough about myself to not need some one else to care about me? I mean - I can't control the world around me. Since I don't have a caring family the only hope is I someday meet a nice Significant Other that cares about me. But in the meantime, myself is all I got. Will that be enough? I am doing fine right now. But I'm pretty sure that when I get to feel my feelings I'll feel some sort of loneliness and I just wanna know if self-care will be enough to combat that.

Love to hear similar stories and how it turned out for you!

Hugs
lemon

Edit: I do have friends, but since I am kind of closed off time will have to tell if those relations will ever be 'real' enough to provide the sense of caring I am talking about here.