yaseko,

Trying to fix self inflicted injuries or stop the bleeding is a big mistake. No matter how careful you are, you might wind up with a serious infection or God forbid, bleed to death.

SI is just a symprom of extreme emotional pain. You need to talk to your nurse and come clean. I know that isn't what you want to hear, but in the long run, you will feel better. There are other ways to cope with your pain/anger than attacking yourself. It takes work. I was held captive by SI since I was ten and didn't stop until I was about 47yrs old. You don't want to go there.

I know you feel fear from telling someone about your problem, and even more the problems underlying the SI, but life is too short to waste it on misery. Until you can find the answer as to why you are harming yourself, it won't stop. You can do this. There are plenty of people here who would be glad to help you, even if its just allowing you to vent your feelings.

Sam2