That's true. I think most of the bitterness comes from the fact that she basically ditched me after making all those plans to move. I was really excited about moving, and I was hoping that living with a close friend and not having the stress of uni would really help me out. Though a part of me still hopes she has days where she is feeling down....and I know that's a really horrible way to think. But I feel like I've been lied to or something. For example, I don't even have a single photo with Karen. I knew her for a whole year and I don't have any photos with her. And yet I see her on Facebook uploading heaps of photos with her new friends; out partying, having lunch together, hanging out together, going to the beach, etc. And it makes me angry because we never did those things together. Since we were both depressed, we'd spend most of our times watching movies and staying indoors. Even when I wanted to go out and do something, she wouldn't want to. And I'm left wondering...why is she doing this now?? Why is she doing all these fun things with your new friends, but she didn't want to do them with me? Was it something I did wrong? Didn't she want to be seen in public with me? Did I bring her down or hold her back? It's so frustrating. It makes me feel like a teen in high school again, dealing with silly high school drama. And I know it shouldn't upset me so much, but it really does.

Edit - I definitely agree Hannabee...I need to move out asap. I'm thinking of moving back to the city. I can't afford to live on my own, but I'm looking at sharehousing. The idea of licing with a group of people I don't know kind of scares me...but I keep thinking to myself that it can't be worse than my current situation. My parents are bringing me down and I hate how far my depression has slipped ever since I've moved back in with them.