Unfortunately pizi getting away doesn´t seem enough. I did that too I left when I was 18. I was doing fine I had no serious problems for nearly 10 years. And then my body started to go crazy on me. I did not know what was happening I had to go to therapy. And now I see that I just shut so much stuff away and never dealt with it. It never disapeard it was just waiting for me to be ready and because I wanted to forget it all it started to get very impatient and would not let me.
It is hard but I believe we need to deal with our past to be able to heal and have bright future. I wish you all the best and good luck.