I am REALLY just damn tired of hurting and....just tired of being sad too. I am not suicidal...never have been...but damn its just gotta get better then this doesn't it?
And where the hell does a 47 year old man go to find love again? SERIOUSLY!!!
Craigslist is just stupid (here anyway) and I am not paying $30 for some dating site. I just feel so awkward and lost and lonely.
Damn I just need the love of a good woman...I promise I wont fu@# it up this time!!
And I gotta clean up my language, get back to Church where I belong...it's all just so much and so hard...why couldn't I have been one of those "take no prisioner" kind of guys who have awesome jobs with awesome incomes and big families....oh just nevermind. I have NEVER been happy with my life.
It's not having what you want, it's wanting what you have, right?!?