Hi Pizi,
There is a phenomenon called "Auditory-
Imprints." Which is the things we heard,or were
told,are embedded in the psyche. Here is a truth:THE WAY OUT IS THROUGH,NOT AROUND!
You must get to a counselor and work through
this.Meanwhile,use your imagination in a quiet
room,and delve into the images and words . . . .
only THIS TIME,see yourself as you are now,
strong,and standing up for that child you were.
E.G. "Don't you DARE touch that child,sit down
and keep your mouth shut!" Or a little more
colorful if you wish (you get the idea). You will
have to repeat it many times over time,until it
loses its power over you. How I feel now about
mine? They are of no consequence . . . .none at
all.
Courage+Kindness,
BLUEDOVE.