please stay safe i know how it feels to not feel wanted or noticed here. but you are definitely cared about! i was going to reply to your check-in yesterday but had to go to work. i was just thinking, maybe since you seem to be under so much stress that you are taking it out on your partner, and your partner is already under a lot of pressure from other influences, maybe a break from each other would be good? i know a lot of people don't want to even consider that, but it would be beneficial for both of you. maybe you can work on your anger management and lashing out (because believe me, i completely understand where you're coming from i have my own abuse issues, where i am the instigator...)

then, maybe, when you are better able to cope with whatever sets you off, you can try again. because people CAN change. they just have to want it.