I have "learned" to become paranoid of other people having been wronged so often by so called freinds I once had. I fear yet another let down in my life and feel by avoiding people I won't get that disappointment once again. The one online freind I do have is stuck in the hospital and they don't even know if she will live.. I often relish my "alone time" and get upset when it gets intterupted by someone. I guess I am just not a likeable person and very opinionated. I was also abused by a mean aunt I had when i was young and it still haunts me and reminds me how cruel some people can be.