I am a relatively new mother to a beautiful baby boy, he will be 6mths Sunday. Tonight was my official first meltdown in front of him, his teething and had been crying all evening and for some reason wouldnt really nap at all so I was trying to get housework done and also my dinner made, his father was not home.

Anyways he was crying and crying and I basically told him to shut the F up and i put my two hands on his head like holding his head and said what is wrong with you, he looked distressed because he could see my reaction and I also kicked the dog who had been barking ALL night long out of my way very gently I didnt hurt him, both of them were looking at me in shock baby and doggy, when my husband came in he was all like awww poor baby which pissed me off even more, my son kept looking over at me to see if I was okay while i was on the couch with my hands on my head..

From the moment he was born we had the most amazing connection but in the last two weeks I just dont feel as madly in love with him as I was at the start and that really worries me, I get anxious anyways so if I dont feel a certain way all the time I really worry and beat myself up, I get no break really other then when my husband takes him, my own family arent living close and his sisters work fulltime so i hate asking them to take my son, and even when i do get a break I want to get back to him but I know from tonight I seriously need some timeout!! I feel so crap right now :-(