So I generally never think of myself as being "triggered" and I am not even sure what exactly I would call being "triggered" (and I know it has been a topic of debate before), but I think that maybe that is the correct word in this case. Sorry, not being clear, I know. So disoriented and keep having these stupid images and things flashing into my head and I am consumed with shame and self loathing and know that I will never ever be clean and need to keep myself away from decent people so I don't contaminate them....ugh....sorry.