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Originally Posted by pizi98
I never feel any emotion...anger, sadness, happiness nothing. I remember always feeling angry and afraid as a kid... But I don't feel anything anymore. It was my birthday the other day and a couple of friends surprised me with a few gifts and I didn't even care. They got upset that I wasn't happy, and I didn't care. They all left me and I didn't care.
What is wrong with me? I want things but don't care about it at the same time. I want to feel happy but I just can't
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I am re-reading this post, wondering what this is like. See I have BPD and cannot stop feeling. I feel everything all at once, then one thing so strong I want to do something to myself to make it stop. Nothing helps, nothing I have learned, nothing I have gone to therapy for...nothing.
In a way I would give anything to trade places with you right now.   
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