TW: self harm


I've just spent the past few days trying to deal with such intense feelings about my T, sometimes it physically hurts. I've also sent stupid irrelevent texts to him. I sway between erotic fantasies about him to fantasies of smashing his head against a wall. I don't see him for 2 weeks but these feelings are paralysing, literally. As well as the anxiety that goes with them. AAAARRRGGGHHH! I feel so bad I just wanted to stick a cigarette in my eye. I won't, I promise.