I feel I need to text him and say "I am trying to tell you something" but in the last week I've sent texts about stupid things like rescheduling and cancelling appts. I feel like I'm abusing the texting privilege and I am so overwhelmed by everything at the moment and can't wait 2 weeks for my appt. The feelings are overwhelming and causing physical pain. I don't think I can wait, but he gave my appt next week to someone else i think. I can't think anymore.