I am not really sure of the answers to your questions, tiny.

Is this really what i want? I don't know. I don't think so. What i really want is to never have to talk of this again (and by 'this' i mean the subject we spoke about last session), but that's not an option, unfortunately.
I know that taking a week off will mean that i am alone with the stuff, but i also feel like i might need that time to get my head around things...i don't know, i am confused