Excuse me for mailing you months after your post. I feel quite the same about my boyfriend's past. I know everything I should be doing to make things better but my insecurity is like an animal I can't control and it rears its ugly head again and again. I at times feel intense anger where I want to punch him or hopelessness where I wish I didn't exist. It's destroying things with him, I no longer feel our relationship is pure.

I was wondering if you came to any conclusion since then? Maybe I can PM you my full story and we can help each other Im not sure.

I hope to hear from you, and I hope you're situation has gotten better since then.
Sharon