I am finally feeling now and accepting and realizing the impact and affect my childhood has had on me. Im thawing out. So you would think I would be more in crisis mode but its the opposite. Like above, its still really hard stuff but im not falling apart and barely surviving in between appointments. Im also feeling the opposite because i'm not fighting the attachment with T anymore. That was HUGELY HARD for me. [/COLOR]I think getting over the attachment hump CHANGED EVERYTHING for me. Im still attached and its still maternal but I feel secure in our relationship now. It was a long road getting there and involved many talks about it but i feel so much better now. I want to see her more so I can get more and more out of therapy!