[QUOTE=Syra;3036333]
That does sound very confusing. You have a lovely connection with your T, and then later you get really uncomfortable and want to distance yourself because you are scared. Is that it? Is there more? I wonder if there is more about the "scared" part?

Thanks for your comment. it made me think about why I feel this and what there is about being scared. There is much more about the "scared" part than I thought.
I find it hard to accept sometimes that i have parts. I want to look away from them so that they will disappear. I know it does not work that way they have always been there. I always had my own way of dealing with them I only did not know then that they were parts. It were problems i had to deal with, no more or less. Now it's totally different and that scares me.
I have a good relationship with my T i've known her for a long time. She accepts the parts better than i do. According to her, I can learn from her to accept the 'others' and so have more compassion for myself.
Her reaction to the drawing was very sweet. I saw it as a response to the little one and not to me. But the little one is a part of me and I do not want a sweet or caring response from her. I want her to see me as a grown-up woman, as a whole person.

it feels confusing

Ps:sorry for my english is not my native language

Liefs Bloem