Thanks mixedup.

I have left an answer phone message on her machine to say i wont be attending next weeks session. I feel OK about that, as i truly do think that i need some time to get my head around things.
I know my T wont call me and ask for me to come, i know she will leave it up to me, and that's OK (so why am i waiting for the phone to ring???).

I think i am going to journal about the whole thing, and then take it with me when i go again. I think that's useful.

I desperately wish that i could un-say the things that i disclosed in our last session, then i wouldn't feel the need to undo all of the hard work that i have put in