I'm bereaving the death of a relationship. The death was caused by the whacky behavior I displayed when over drinking while taking St. John's Wort to try to alleviate the symptoms of nicotine withdrawal. This is why it's so important that I quit the coping mechanisms. They have now created real wreckage, negatively impacted an important relationship. I did not recognize the person I was being and never want to see her again, so they have to go. Day 7 cold turkey, almost relapsed last night, but went to a chat site. Soooo happy I can say today is day 7. Was depressed before, but have a lot on my plate right now. Am a bundle of nerves, tears, and also the awful blahs.