I don't know, I think you're so starved for love from your bf (is he ex-bf yet?) and he's such a jerk to you.... I just think it sounds more like reaching out for some human contact to me. I mean, I've never actually heard you talk about your bf being nice to you, or if he does something nice it's always with fine print.

I know when I was with my ex I felt that way. I'm not a very flirty person, but I was like reaching out in all directions. And, i was tyring to find him a new girlfriend, too. LOL. I had one all picked out. There were too many missing pieces in that relationship. Now that I'm with my husband,I don't ever feel that way at all, instead the oposite of wanting to pull things back together if things are out of place.

So, I think it's just something that happens.

I suddenly remember you talking about Kali.