One way of calming the emotions is to take Omega3 fatty acids, Sugarhorse. They
won't act as strongly as a benzo, but they are not addictive and they do provide
relief for depression and bipolar illness. I use Nordic Omega 3's but there are many
other good brands out there.

Please try alternatives to addictive substances; you'll be doing yourself a real favor,
as you already know.

Try the "lemon thing", too, when you feel too "upper" with emotional turmoil. It
works for some of us.