Yesss DHX! I firmly believe that the bf/ex bf is a huge catalyst in decision making. I experienced the the same thing with the ex I mentioned in the above post, although that time I couldn't point any fingers at him, we had just started getting serious (might I mention I felt obligated/guilted into being exclusive) when I had that one night stand. And did it because I KNEW my friend and I would end up naked and didn't want it to happen further into the relationship when hardcore feelings have been established because I'd be riddled with guilt.

Bear with me I'm getting to the point 2yrs or so into my relationship with him, I felt suffocated, unappreciated and more like a prized trophy than a cherished gf.

So in an attempt to feel wanted, I "tried" to cheat on him. I say "tried" because while I managed to pull off the act of cheating, my heart wasn't in it, I couldn't even "follow through" without breaking into a sob from the guilt that consumed me, and I demanded he drop me off at bf's house where I immediately confessed all, nevermind having an actual "guy on the sly" to fill the gaps exbf left... *sigh*

With current bf, who I started dating in 2009, I've never even considered cheating, dating anyone else, or even kissing another man, even when we were broken up. Not once has another man been appealing as dating/partner material, because that spot has been irrevocably filled.

So yes, I concur DHX's post, there is much truth in what she says, as I can vouch for from my own experiences.

Btw. DHX Been meaning to tell you, your screen name has been bugging me for a while sis. There's nothing Dark about your beautiful Heart